i'm not allowed to be angry.
everything i hold dear to me was broken, destroyed, stolen, and lost.
what am i supposed to do about it???

and sometimes

i have an angry side
like a retard who cant paint
throwing everything
i'm pissed
why is it like this
what can i do
all of you deserve my rage
for what you have created in me

today

today
i forgot how much i loved you
and i cried
knowing i would forget tomorrow

yesterday
i cant remember
and i am stricken by the deja vu
remembering bits and pieces,
but mostly forgetting about you

tomorrow
i wont need the memory of being sad
for i'm lost and helpless without a clue
my sticky notes are depressing
and i feel like a fool

i barely remember why i started this
i've degraded that badly
i'm much past my expiration date
but i cant throw myself away